I wish.

   
I wish for a lot of things.
But i think what i wish for the most was back to when things were simpler.
Where you wear diaper for me.
Where you wrote a little pardon letter for me when i didn't go school.
When did that gone to.
I am still seeking.
I was just perhaps in the process of discovering myself?
I really am sorry for things i have done.
But i am still in the midst of discovering myself determining who i want to be perhaps?
Have you think so?

Yeah. when things are like that.

Or like that..

sometimes it scares me to bits How i can appear so carefree.Like that.
Was i that happy?
Sometimes I think i am very weird you know.
Even tsunami striked me today.I cry till my eyes are bloodshot.And tomorrow, when i see my friends, I am still able to laugh like nobody's business.
Actually I think I am mean. Thats why I have enemies.
Maybe Karma happened.So my phone got stolen.Or it is just plain my fault trying to justify my carelessness.
There are so many thought in my mind.
My happiness are limited.In a way I think.
I went out with Elaine today.Missed her so much.Went all the way from Pavillion to the Curve.
I think i am just in the process of finding myself.Discovering thru trial and error which way suited me most.
Because I don't want to follow the flow.
Because I am not like everyone else.
Because I am me.
I am different.
At least that was what i lead myself to believe.